Uncommonly Common Cassie

I have been working on one thing since I was three years old and sitting in circle in preschool. My goal was to cross that stage. shake my principal’s hand and get a diploma. My goal will be achieved on June 1st, but before that someone much more monumental is taking place. Tomorrow is my last day of school.
I have been with the same group of 150 kids since fourth grade. We have worked together, and fought. We have laughed and shed tears. We have been there for each other wether we were happy, sad, mad, excited or whatever other emotion we had at that time.
After tomorrow we will no longer be sitting in the same class. We won’t be laughing at our teacher’s lame jokes. We won’t be walking down the hallways with books in our arms talking. We won’t be passing notes from row to row of desks. We won’t be together again
On Sunday, June 1st we will part our ways. Some of us will be leaving for the military, some of us taking summer courses, some of us preparing for college, some of us getting married or having a baby, some of us are still unsure what we will be doing and will take the summer to figure it out. Never will we all be united in that stadium that our schools looks out on.
And after high school what happens? You are taken and pushed out into the real world. You go to college. You start your family. You start your life basically. But where are the instructions? In high school we had our hand book, we had people who made sure we didn’t wander too far from the path we needed to be on. We had people who watched over our shoulders for 7+ hours a day making sure we did the right things and they truly cared for us. Will a boss ever care for us the way our teachers did? Will our boss ever inform your supervisor that it’s alright that you are late for school because you are an awful driver and if you rushed your life would probably be taken? No.
Tomorrow many of us will leave those doors for the last time. Some of us will never look back, and others will always yearn for the comfort those walls provided. I know I will be one of those people.
I will miss school, my friends, my teachers, the familiar smells, sights, sounds. I am sad to leave it all behind, and even though I am only 17 I feel like I am telling my childhood goodbye. But I am happy too, for a reason in which I can not figure out. Graduation! A word that any underclassmen or middle schooler sees as far away, and exciting. But it came too soon, and it’s not all happiness and smiles. It’s tears. It’s laughter. Anticipation. Nervousness. It’s goodbyes, see ya laters, and finally hello real world.

Once again I have failed to provide my readers (if I still have any) with any reading material for a long time. Sorry about that.

Several things have been going on, like not having any free time at all to do anything with because I have a crap load of stuff to do at any given moment in the day.

I have to get 3 of my Wisdom Teeth removed on the 21st. The fourth one is up by my sinuses and they said it’s too risky to take it out when it’s not causing any problems and it will most likely not grow anymore. I am not nervous about the procedure, but nervous about getting an IV and what I am going to be like when I am totally out of it from the drugs.

I have been suffering from a lack of sleep paired with a slight illness for the past week. The fever and headache make it hard for me to sleep, and the lack of sleep make the fever and headache worse. I feel better though, it’s just a cold that’s been spreading around and such.

School and work have both been going well.

I started driving, but still need to get my license.

I need to turn in my college application too. Opps!  I have a Financial Aide meeting on Thursday, I’ll turn it in then.

Although I came home today and slept for an hour, I really should go to bed for the nigh.

Night!

Love,

Cassie

So, if I had any readers who read daily I have probably lost them by now. Sorry about that. I have been leading a boring life since school started, and haven’t had much to talk about really.

I went to a Halloween Party for Halloween, hat was fun. I dressed up as a ghost :).

School has been going alright. I am still hating English, but that’s alright. I took my ACTs on the 27th, and did alright, the science part kicked my ass though.

I know what college I am going to, I just need to apply. Opps!

The only thing that really has me troubled is this:

My great-aunt isn’t doing so well. She’s in the hospital currently. I work with her granddaughter, who is my cousin of some sort. My grandma goes to the hospital to see her at least once a day, and each time my great-aunt asks her why I (I = me, Cassie) always stand in the corner and never talk to her anymore. She thinks something is wrong with me. She has also said that my mom and sister have been up to see her (they haven’t) and that her grandson’s new wife has crabs and is having an affair.

So, now my grandma wants me to go see her. I don’t want to for several reasons. I am uncomfortable in situations like that, I hate hospitals, I’ve had a cold for the past few days (nothing bad just sniffles, cough and such) and I work in a daycare and go to school so I am a germ factory.

I told my grandma I won’t go see her, but once (if) she is back in the nursing home I will go see her. I just hope this isn’t a decision I regret later.

But it’s weird she is asking for me.

I saw her a lot when I was younger, and went to the nursing home to see her once or twice. Ugh, I don’t know. She can’t talk on the phone, or she doesn’t want to.

In other news: I have to get my wisdom teeth out :(, One Homeless Night is coming up soon :), Thanksgiving is soon :), Colby is coming home soon :).

-cassie

I don’t know why I haven’t been turning to my blog more often to talk about my day, probably because I am in school and have lots of people to talk to everyday. But, I want to keep this blog going, so I will try to post more often. Okay, how many times do I say that and I never do. I should just stop saying it.

Anyway, I got my Senior Drape pictures taken on Tuesday. That was…um awkward. The pictures were being taken in the auditorium and the girls were getting dressed behind the curtain. So I walked back, and a girl who goes to my school, but I don’t even know turned to me and said “Okay, take your shirt off!” Woah! So I just grabbed the little tube top thingy, the drape and went to a different section to dress. I’ll be able to see my pictures sometime next week.

My grades are decent, a C and three As. The class I have a C in is super hard, and getting a C is a major achievement.  Kids in the top 10% of my class are barely passing that class. Makes me frustrated beyond all belief but it’s okay.

Right now I am trying to figure out which days I can and can not work during Thanksgiving and Christmas Break. So I am going to go finish this so I can write a note to my boss ASAP.

Yup!

-Cassie

I haven’t posted in a while, mainly because English is whipping my butt but also because graduation is too.

I don’t want to graduate, I don’t want to be thrown into the real world. I can’t help but think that after June 1st 2008 I may never see some of these people again. Some of them I have known since I was 3, some of them since then end of August. It’s going to be so weird.

Also, this whole college thing isn’t looking too fun anymore. I don’t even know what I want to do anymore. I think I might get my Bachelor’s in Elementary or Early Childhood Education, be a substitute/teacher for a few years and then open up my own daycare. That is a goal at least. I don’t really want to spend my whole life in a school anymore. The educational system in this country is not looking real great. Okay, maybe not the whole country, but this area at least. And I don’t want to leave this area.

A teacher told me today I should open up my own daycare, because I could operate a business well and because I like kids, am creative and something else. I don’t remember what that was though.

But, right now I need to clean out my purse and go to bed. Oh, and hope I am not getting strep even though I think I am. Ugh!

-cassie

It seems that way at least, but it hasn’t been 400 years since I updated last.

I am pooped.

And stressed.

Today, I got up, went to school, went to work, came home and had dinner, baby sat, worked outside, and now here I am. I will write this blog. Spend a few minutes working on what I am trying to fix on here and then do some homework. I have so much work to do…

In English.

All of my homework is from that class. We are currently reading 3 stories. Le Miserables, Beowulf, and The Iliad. I have 2 projects due in that class next week. I am trying to do my work as soon as I get it assigned, and I don’t know how others are not doing this.

I am scared to death I will fail. Scared. To. Death.  This class is the most failed, and the class that keeps the most seniors from graduating.

As soon as this class is over, the rest of my year should be pretty good. I wish I could enjoy this first semester more though. I need to get started on college applications, and senior pictures and such too.

Also, I have been going to Jen’s cheerleading practice and her games. I really enjoy that, and I feel like I should be there for her during them. So, thats fun.

But now I need to go. I don’t have time to work on  my blog, but I’ll do my homework now!

Oh joy.

-cassie

(ps, anyone who knows any songs that have lyrics that relate to my life…let me know. Because when I am told to find something like this my mind goes blank and all I can think about is the song Bitch by Meredith Brooks)

I was ready to go back to school since we let out in June.  I would be a senior, an upperclassman, and be counting down my last days of highschool.

Then, I got there.

I missed work, a lot.
None of my friends were in my classes.
I ended up with a teacher who is very into favoritism and I don’t meet any of the qualifications so she doesn’t like me already.

Tomorrow, I will go to the guidance office and try to get my schedule changed a little bit.  I really hope it can be fixed. The only class I have friends in is 4th block. I have been told so many times today, “Well, just make new friends!”. But it’s my senior year. After this year who knows when I will see some of my best friends again. I don’t want to make new friends, I want to spend time with the friends I have.

I graduate June 1st, 2008 at 2 pm.

Part of me wants to cry, and the other is cheering.

This is something I have been working towards since I started school when I was 3.
After this year I have five more years until I am done being the student, and I can become the teacher.

And my arms and head are peeling which is super gross.
Ew.

Wish me luck tomorrow.

I have decided to make some possibly major changes here on my blog.

It’s going to take me a day or two, and I might have to take all of my entries off of public for a while so don’t freak out if you look on my blog and all, or some of my entries are gone.

I have always been kind of curious about where this blog would go in the future, and have wondered how many people I know and am around on a daily basis read it. But I have never been to worried about it. Then nannyanya posted a blog that mentioned how anonymous a blog is. Well, mine isn’t so anonymous.

I thought about it some, and I think I figured out a way to fix it.

So, I am going to go work on this now and get some aloe for my sunburn (yay 5 hour pee wee football games!).

-cassie

I have food poisoning.

I got it from some salsa I ate last night.

I threw up today at work, which was embarrassing and made me feel horrible. Since then I have thrown up more than I remember throwing up in a long time. It’s rare for me to throw up, and to throw up multiple times is almost unheard of.

I am also dehydrated. I want to chug a bottle of ice cold water, but then I would throw it up.  So I am stuck to sipping room temperature cans of Sierra Mist…and then throwing them up. I’ve ate 1/4 a pack of Ramen, 5 grapes, and a slice of toast today, and it’s all out of my system.

I am not running a temp though. It’s 99.4, which is high for me (I am usually 97.3) but nothing horrible.

Anyway, I am going to attempt to get some sleep.

Goodnight!